and so the sun set today, on this metaphorical summer solstice. Rather than curse the darkness, I feel lucky to have enjoyed the beauty while it lasted. Words can't express how sad I am. But I will not let my circumstances determine my mood. Life is not the hand that you've been dealt, but the way you play it. A glass with a drop of water is not empty, it possesses a drop... and because of the emptiness around it, that drop means so much more. I shall not live in the past, I shall not let a disappointing feeling determine my overall happiness. To the sun that has set. I wish you nothing but the absolute best. From these embers rose a pixie. Conquer the world. Take from it all that you deserve. I'm fortunate to have met you. I have no question your potential and your destiny. Your life will be great because of what an amazing person you are... and rather than clip your wings, I encourage you to fly. Fly to limits you thought impossible, fly amongst the stars, and shine. Shine with every bit of light that radiates from you. Good luck, from the bottom of my heart. I love you.
Life is a series of moments. relish in them. Soak and bask in the sunshine while it beams down on you. For soon it will be gone. Live right now. it is the darkness that helps us to appreciate the light. I shall not curse you darkness. I'll merely recognize your importance as I begin to see the light.
I'm thankful for my friends, family, and all the blessings I have in my life. I can't describe how much i appreciate every single one of you that care about me. Thank you.
I think this blog has probably met it's end as well. A wonderful chapter in my life, but I will probably be starting a new blog. To my dedicated readers, I bid you adieu, and will keep you apprised of how you can continue to follow my unentertaining and random cross section of my brain. Good night.
Goodbye kisses to you all.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
numerology reading (no clever title) :(
this is a numerology reading I got today. For those that know me, read it and see what you think. i found it interesting nonetheless... it's always fun to read about yourself... true or false.:
Your Inner or Soul's Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction. Number: 8
You desire big affairs and the power to handle them, with success in all material matters. You love organization, construction, finance, and the huge operations of the commercial world. Happiness, for you, is doing things in a big way, getting results. You are generous, large-minded, powerful, and dependable; a natural executive.
You have courage and poise, with the vision, strength, efficiency, excellent judgment, stamina, and determination to succeed. When struggling against opposition you are confident of victory.
Your ability to see the true potential in others may make you seem dominant and exacting; but you never spare yourself, either. You are a power for good. However, if you seek money and control purely for selfish reasons, they will tend to elude you.
For more success and better control, cultivate justice and toleration for the weaker and less efficient.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Inner or Soul's Urge.
Your Personality: This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you. Number: 8
You appear friendly, persuasive, self-controlled, and positive, with a powerful personality that attracts respect from both leaders and subordinates. You are one who gets things done.
You hesitate to demonstrate emotion or tenderness.
To do your personality justice, you should always be well-dressed in good materials that give you an appearance of success.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Personality.
Your Quiescent Self: Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "shoulds", and "shouldn'ts" -- this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams.. Number: 8
You envision yourself as the Executive Director and/or on the Board of Directors of many large, international companies. Your suite of offices is expansive, with dedicated staff sufficient to do business on the enormous scale that you do.
Your thoughts and pleasure are of vibrant businesses with you as the executive and your professional staff taking care of the details.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Quiescent Self.
Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal: This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days. Number: 7
Your destiny is to be one of the educators of the world -- uncovering and understanding the mysteries of life; studying, proving, making sure of facts then writing, teaching, or demonstrating your knowledge to others.
Your quest for knowledge can bring you many unusual experiences and associations. You are intelligent, intuitive, scientific, a thinker, and a sage and you have far-reaching insight. You are an articulate and convincing spokesperson and a perfectionist, and would be at home in any executive position that did not involve machinery or the manufacturing departments.
You enjoy writing, inventing, philosophy, and religions.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 7 Destiny or Ultimate Goal.
Your Life's Path: Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path. Number: 11
You are drawn to movements or organizations with idealistic aims. You have a tendency to become caught up in fanatical cults or other fringe movements. Your path includes diplomacy in its various aspects -- smoothing the affairs of others with discretion, tact, intuition, cooperation, patience, persistence, persuasion, and loyalty to those you serve; being the peacemaker, cultivating friendships, and helping others reach their goals. Your path is easier when you express kindness and gentleness and are considerate of others' feelings.
Your path includes developing your talents of invention, seeking the discovery of new principles, and elevating everything to the plane of inspiration. If you decide to investigate the psychic, healing, and metaphysical fields, you will be able to put them to their highest use. Trust your intuitions. Inspire by your own example. You can effect more change through persuasion than by force.
Your opportunities are along spiritual lines or in the realms of invention, metaphysics, politics, or acting. You are liable to achieve great public attention and influence if you do not seek them from ulterior motives. You do well helping others reach their goals.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 11 Life's Path.
This Year's Path: Here is what you are likely to encounter this year -- your feelings, your predominant perspective, and the type of situations, circumstances, and opportunities you tend to attract during the calendar year. Number: 11
Harmonious associations are very important for you this year. The year's success and good results will be obtained through diplomacy, cooperation, tactfulness, good relationships, and, especially, personal introspection. It is a year for receiving and sharing rather than aggressively pursuing your own way.
Your intuition and emotions are enhanced this year.
It is a busy year, with endless demands on your time. It is easier to work with others rather than doing things by yourself.
Your plans and developments may experience periods of delay. No need to worry about that. Things seem to move slower this year.
The year can revitalize your peace of mind. It is a good time to strengthen your friendships.
A heightened religious, mystical, and psychic awareness can bring you to a position of influence. This is the year your ideals of a personal, inner nature become visible even to others.
It is a busy year.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 11 Year's Path.
Next Year's Path. Number: 3
This is the year to express your inspiration, your imagination, your creative thought, and your deep emotional feelings. You desire to do more entertaining this year and accept more invitations. Take time off to enjoy yourself.
You can give color and warmth to all levels of living. Be artistic. Express yourself joyfully. Now is the time to follow those inspirational and imaginative ideas you are so excited about. Follow your desire for self-improvement; the year is rich with opportunities for inner growth.
It is a colorful and eventful year, with pleasure, opportunities for travel, enjoyable social activities, and entertainment coming your way.
Allow your abundance of cheer and optimism to guide you.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 3 Next Year's Path.
Last Year's Path. Number: 1
More so than usual, you feel desire to move forward, to improve situations, to assert your individuality, and to get on with life. Reach for opportunities and they will come to you.
Life is beginning anew! Now is the time to put your best foot forward; to take up a hobby or other activity that will freshen your thinking and broaden your general activities; to look ahead.
This is an active year with many decisions to make. Your affairs are making a new start. The next nine years' experience will depend a great deal on what you do and don't do this year. It calls for strength of purpose, clear thinking, and listening to your inner voice.
Your Inner or Soul's Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction. Number: 8
You desire big affairs and the power to handle them, with success in all material matters. You love organization, construction, finance, and the huge operations of the commercial world. Happiness, for you, is doing things in a big way, getting results. You are generous, large-minded, powerful, and dependable; a natural executive.
You have courage and poise, with the vision, strength, efficiency, excellent judgment, stamina, and determination to succeed. When struggling against opposition you are confident of victory.
Your ability to see the true potential in others may make you seem dominant and exacting; but you never spare yourself, either. You are a power for good. However, if you seek money and control purely for selfish reasons, they will tend to elude you.
For more success and better control, cultivate justice and toleration for the weaker and less efficient.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Inner or Soul's Urge.
Your Personality: This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you. Number: 8
You appear friendly, persuasive, self-controlled, and positive, with a powerful personality that attracts respect from both leaders and subordinates. You are one who gets things done.
You hesitate to demonstrate emotion or tenderness.
To do your personality justice, you should always be well-dressed in good materials that give you an appearance of success.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Personality.
Your Quiescent Self: Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "shoulds", and "shouldn'ts" -- this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams.. Number: 8
You envision yourself as the Executive Director and/or on the Board of Directors of many large, international companies. Your suite of offices is expansive, with dedicated staff sufficient to do business on the enormous scale that you do.
Your thoughts and pleasure are of vibrant businesses with you as the executive and your professional staff taking care of the details.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 8 Quiescent Self.
Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal: This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days. Number: 7
Your destiny is to be one of the educators of the world -- uncovering and understanding the mysteries of life; studying, proving, making sure of facts then writing, teaching, or demonstrating your knowledge to others.
Your quest for knowledge can bring you many unusual experiences and associations. You are intelligent, intuitive, scientific, a thinker, and a sage and you have far-reaching insight. You are an articulate and convincing spokesperson and a perfectionist, and would be at home in any executive position that did not involve machinery or the manufacturing departments.
You enjoy writing, inventing, philosophy, and religions.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 7 Destiny or Ultimate Goal.
Your Life's Path: Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path. Number: 11
You are drawn to movements or organizations with idealistic aims. You have a tendency to become caught up in fanatical cults or other fringe movements. Your path includes diplomacy in its various aspects -- smoothing the affairs of others with discretion, tact, intuition, cooperation, patience, persistence, persuasion, and loyalty to those you serve; being the peacemaker, cultivating friendships, and helping others reach their goals. Your path is easier when you express kindness and gentleness and are considerate of others' feelings.
Your path includes developing your talents of invention, seeking the discovery of new principles, and elevating everything to the plane of inspiration. If you decide to investigate the psychic, healing, and metaphysical fields, you will be able to put them to their highest use. Trust your intuitions. Inspire by your own example. You can effect more change through persuasion than by force.
Your opportunities are along spiritual lines or in the realms of invention, metaphysics, politics, or acting. You are liable to achieve great public attention and influence if you do not seek them from ulterior motives. You do well helping others reach their goals.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 11 Life's Path.
This Year's Path: Here is what you are likely to encounter this year -- your feelings, your predominant perspective, and the type of situations, circumstances, and opportunities you tend to attract during the calendar year. Number: 11
Harmonious associations are very important for you this year. The year's success and good results will be obtained through diplomacy, cooperation, tactfulness, good relationships, and, especially, personal introspection. It is a year for receiving and sharing rather than aggressively pursuing your own way.
Your intuition and emotions are enhanced this year.
It is a busy year, with endless demands on your time. It is easier to work with others rather than doing things by yourself.
Your plans and developments may experience periods of delay. No need to worry about that. Things seem to move slower this year.
The year can revitalize your peace of mind. It is a good time to strengthen your friendships.
A heightened religious, mystical, and psychic awareness can bring you to a position of influence. This is the year your ideals of a personal, inner nature become visible even to others.
It is a busy year.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 11 Year's Path.
Next Year's Path. Number: 3
This is the year to express your inspiration, your imagination, your creative thought, and your deep emotional feelings. You desire to do more entertaining this year and accept more invitations. Take time off to enjoy yourself.
You can give color and warmth to all levels of living. Be artistic. Express yourself joyfully. Now is the time to follow those inspirational and imaginative ideas you are so excited about. Follow your desire for self-improvement; the year is rich with opportunities for inner growth.
It is a colorful and eventful year, with pleasure, opportunities for travel, enjoyable social activities, and entertainment coming your way.
Allow your abundance of cheer and optimism to guide you.
Click here to chat with someone about your number 3 Next Year's Path.
Last Year's Path. Number: 1
More so than usual, you feel desire to move forward, to improve situations, to assert your individuality, and to get on with life. Reach for opportunities and they will come to you.
Life is beginning anew! Now is the time to put your best foot forward; to take up a hobby or other activity that will freshen your thinking and broaden your general activities; to look ahead.
This is an active year with many decisions to make. Your affairs are making a new start. The next nine years' experience will depend a great deal on what you do and don't do this year. It calls for strength of purpose, clear thinking, and listening to your inner voice.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
stream of conceited conscientiousness.
I guess it's that time again. First off... Any time you start with a first, I guess that means there's going to be a last... I want to be your last first 70's iconic music band covered in face paint. They're probably playing in the capital of germany, but a girl in an attic comes before all that happens. Let's not clown around though. let's not dilly dali. you are my salvador. I am the patron saint of lost causes. Maybe I'm the patron saint of lost effects. Eh, Either way, it doesn't affect me. positive affect on the other hand, has a great effect. one month. 31 days 5/8 (three minus one is 2. five from eight is 3. 3 + 2 = 5). something hive. trolley 4 sided polygon. want a cracker. or perhaps a barrel of oil. artists can use fish as paint brushes. talk about an upside. neglect the ecosystem being turned upside down. and watchout coral reefs. They better not contaminate those coral eyes.
but que sera sera. drill baby drill. but more innuendo is what i'm after. rhymes with nintendo (ish). 64 is 8 squared. and it's the square root of 4096. that math was done on ambien. may want to check it. ooh, i want to go to a real salt lake game. should be fun. I need new blue socks :( the word lunatic comes from the belief that insanity was induced by the "lunar cycle" buy now, you're probably wondering about embedded commands. but i'm in bed. I command you not to ask. don't tell. can they change the name to the black house... just to piss the racist people off? is that racist for me to say. shit. but it's coo. what clucks and challenges yes we can? A solution to health care. maybe her slogan should be yes we clan! Talk to your health care provider. provide her with insurance so she can ensure you get your proper care. metaphysically speaking I am but a collection of perceptions that changes from moment to moment. I wonder what I'll be doing a minute and a half from now. I wonder what topic I'll be on. I hope it's hot. like a dog. just kidding. that's bull. chevy nova. chevy no va. such an awesome english to spanish marketing oversight. I think i have undersight. i need new glasses. preferably ones that are half-full and rose colored. or that have cute little pixies on them or fiery embers. hindsight isn't 20/20. i think that's just stupid. I think it's probably more like 20/10. I mean seriously... think of it. if it's only 20/20... you're not very bright. Everybody who doesn't have an energy efficient light bulb in every possible place one could go... please go do that now. It will even save you money. Ray allen shot 11 3s. made 8. sounds like mayday. but it isn't a parade, or a magazine. it's june law and the semester abroad. brand new shout out to any of you that took a viagra before reading this... it's probably the only way you can keep up. but the upkeep is costly. costcoly. that is less costly. luna, esta a little bit better. but i am bien silly. I did so much today. missed a certain xx like crazy. y you ask? she may be perfection personified. I'm a perfectionist. actually i'm just perfect. okay. I concede. that's a little conceited. Is the first person to sit down during a standing ovation an asshole, or an innovator? hmm. I wonder. like alice in _____ land. ? space. francis is surely a sage. discography. graphology. for profit or for fun. for prophet or for fun. suppose it is my bed time. i want to go to noro. put my vices that you stole in a jar, fill it at the bottom with a bride covered in gasoline, hope it doesn't make me sink... or I'll be gone for good. pushing up daisies.
if you've kept up this long, you may have priapism. and that's serious shit. see your doctor. don't poke him in the eye though. if you do, he won't see you. definitely literally. maybe not figuratively. I figure this is literally the second to last sentence of my blog. Last sentence kisses to you all.
but que sera sera. drill baby drill. but more innuendo is what i'm after. rhymes with nintendo (ish). 64 is 8 squared. and it's the square root of 4096. that math was done on ambien. may want to check it. ooh, i want to go to a real salt lake game. should be fun. I need new blue socks :( the word lunatic comes from the belief that insanity was induced by the "lunar cycle" buy now, you're probably wondering about embedded commands. but i'm in bed. I command you not to ask. don't tell. can they change the name to the black house... just to piss the racist people off? is that racist for me to say. shit. but it's coo. what clucks and challenges yes we can? A solution to health care. maybe her slogan should be yes we clan! Talk to your health care provider. provide her with insurance so she can ensure you get your proper care. metaphysically speaking I am but a collection of perceptions that changes from moment to moment. I wonder what I'll be doing a minute and a half from now. I wonder what topic I'll be on. I hope it's hot. like a dog. just kidding. that's bull. chevy nova. chevy no va. such an awesome english to spanish marketing oversight. I think i have undersight. i need new glasses. preferably ones that are half-full and rose colored. or that have cute little pixies on them or fiery embers. hindsight isn't 20/20. i think that's just stupid. I think it's probably more like 20/10. I mean seriously... think of it. if it's only 20/20... you're not very bright. Everybody who doesn't have an energy efficient light bulb in every possible place one could go... please go do that now. It will even save you money. Ray allen shot 11 3s. made 8. sounds like mayday. but it isn't a parade, or a magazine. it's june law and the semester abroad. brand new shout out to any of you that took a viagra before reading this... it's probably the only way you can keep up. but the upkeep is costly. costcoly. that is less costly. luna, esta a little bit better. but i am bien silly. I did so much today. missed a certain xx like crazy. y you ask? she may be perfection personified. I'm a perfectionist. actually i'm just perfect. okay. I concede. that's a little conceited. Is the first person to sit down during a standing ovation an asshole, or an innovator? hmm. I wonder. like alice in _____ land. ? space. francis is surely a sage. discography. graphology. for profit or for fun. for prophet or for fun. suppose it is my bed time. i want to go to noro. put my vices that you stole in a jar, fill it at the bottom with a bride covered in gasoline, hope it doesn't make me sink... or I'll be gone for good. pushing up daisies.
if you've kept up this long, you may have priapism. and that's serious shit. see your doctor. don't poke him in the eye though. if you do, he won't see you. definitely literally. maybe not figuratively. I figure this is literally the second to last sentence of my blog. Last sentence kisses to you all.
Friday, June 4, 2010
forever, rays, from the indellible pre-frontal cortex, with a k.
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Saturday, May 29, 2010
3. but still less than 3
three weeks.
I less than three you.
and it seems to be greater than each previous day.
besos.
I less than three you.
and it seems to be greater than each previous day.
besos.
Monday, May 24, 2010
ai think not.
currently:
-laying next to an angel
-watching house
-feeling sleepy
could life get any better? me thinks not.
-laying next to an angel
-watching house
-feeling sleepy
could life get any better? me thinks not.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
greg the robot
tears. kill the pain. break the mirror. sanity lies in the resisting of the temptations behind the shattered vanity.
take a pill throw it on the floor you writhed in. forsaken by everything except the one thing that's always been taken.
hallucinations, reality, when the line is blurred, the saboteur doesn't seem so demure. but i swear this heart is pure. through pain, emotional, phsyical, psychological.
endure, persevere, blood shot eyes, dripping tears. cut off the limb to save the life, watch it end early with blood on the knife.
everybody lies.
even the emotionless cry
take a pill throw it on the floor you writhed in. forsaken by everything except the one thing that's always been taken.
hallucinations, reality, when the line is blurred, the saboteur doesn't seem so demure. but i swear this heart is pure. through pain, emotional, phsyical, psychological.
endure, persevere, blood shot eyes, dripping tears. cut off the limb to save the life, watch it end early with blood on the knife.
everybody lies.
even the emotionless cry
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